We're on again!

Yes! AF showed her face again yesterday after a 2+ month absence. I don't think I've ever been so excited about it (we IF'ers live weird lives). So IVF #2(bis) is on!

Went to the nurse yesterday with toddler in tow to get my decapeptyl shot. It was obvious to him the nurse was going to do something to his mommy and he didn't like it. Could not be distracted by the big empty syringe the nurse offered him to play with. Just held my leg and wanted a hug when it was over.

Stimming starts in 19 days (during our ski vacation, but hey, at least u/s won't be until a week later so I don't have to drive back and forth from the Alps, or worse, cancel the vacation, or even worse, postpone the cycle - which I was all nervous about when I booked the trip a few weeks ago)...

Waiting for AF

Yes, that's right. After I had to cancel my cycle on November 16, I'm still waiting for AF to show up. Didn't think it would take that long. I now even realize more how all those hormone drugs (I assume especially the decapeptyl) mess up a woman's body. I want to start a new IVF cycle!! But hey, I guess I have to let nature take its course before I'm allowed to screw it up again...

41w3d - 4th past-due-date consult

Yes, I'm still here and so is my big belly... which means we had to go to the hospital again this morning, for our DD+7 consult. Again, everything was fine. Little man was sleeping in the beginning and awake in the end, so his HR was somewhere between 130 and 150. My BP was back into its normal range: 115/63. No contractions registered to speak of, which is consistent with the last few days: the BH contractions don't really start until around lunchtime and get more frequent (but not more regular) in the evening.

More mucus plug / bloody show late yesterday afternoon and this morning, but other than that, no impending labor symptoms at all. The last consult is now scheduled for Sunday late afternoon - after that they'll either admit me directly and start induction by preparing the cervix early Monday morning with a prostaglandin gel, or if the cervix is ripe enough, I can go home again Sunday after the consult and come back on Monday morning to start the induction with oxytocin. Of course I still hope this won't be necessary after all and I'll go into labor on my own in the coming hours/days (the clock is ticking...)!

(Bad) mood

Someone told me I was too hard on my sister-in-law (and maybe even on my mother) in yesterday's post. Well, maybe, yes, but that was how I was feeling, so I wrote it down (and it doesn't mean that I don't love them both dearly and really appreciate it that they are always thinking of us).

I have the feeling though that my raging hormones are not making me a nicer person these days. Yesterday I had a music ensemble rehearsal and I lashed out at the violinist, because he told us he was just counting and couldn't listen (yet) to what the others were playing, with the result that he started (and finished) too early every single time. So I told him to listen, instead of count, but he refused. I insisted. He refused. So I got angrier and told him again to listen to the others, isn't that the whole point of ensemble playing...?! He asked me why I was so irritated, I said I didn't know, but that I just couldn't understand his attitude. We started playing again... he finally listened, and we were together...

So, I do apologize to anyone I've been grumpy to lately. Blame it on the hormones.